Some Thoughts on Conspiracy

So I’ve been continuing to talk to L., who calls me her “Internet boy-toy” and introduced me to the wonders of phone sex–two minds and two voices and the power of imagination.

Today we talked about my relationship with my wife. My wife, of course, has always known about my dealings (or whatever one wishes to call them) with L., and L. broached the idea of talking to my wife directly–something she had never done.

She seemed a little unsure at first; if you are not accustomed to this sort of thing, what do you say to your lover’s spouse, even if your “lover” is only virtual?

She need not have bee concerned, of course. My wife is a genuinely warm and wonderful person, and she has no thought of care or dismay at the prospect of sharing my attentions, provided she is sharing them with the right person. The three of us were soon talking easily.

A bit too easily, I fear. For it soon came to pass that L. had some evil and devious ideas to share with my wife, and wished to do this thing without my eavesdropping.

L. is possessed of one of the finest and most imaginatively evil and cruel minds I have encountered in many years. Her creativity and her delicious evil are things to be marvelled at: “Now take a rubber band and two raw eggs…”

The two are conspiring even as I speak. Occasionally, I hear my wife laughing in the room upstairs.

I am very, very afraid.

20 thoughts on “Some Thoughts on Conspiracy

  1. ewwww

    you creep me out. how old are you? i bet you get off on the 14 year olds talking about masturbation or the 12 year olds having sex with their preteen lovers over on sextips. can we say pedafile? i bet you arent even married… your whole online persona is a sham… a sick fantasy. yuck.

    • Re: ewwww

      Heya there, Ewwwww, ever hear of minding your own business and being polite in someone else’s livingroom? Especially one where you weren’t actually invited. Pissing on the carpet is rude. How old are you and why should you care what’s going on in someone else’s life? Don’t answer, no one is interested in you or your opinion. Go potty someplace else.

      Anon. . . so you don’t come piss in my living room either, you sound a bit not right in the head.

    • Re: ewwww

      “you creep me out.”

      Somehow, that bothers me not even a little. πŸ™‚

      “how old are you?”

      35; I’ll be 36 in March.

      “can we say pedafile?”

      Did you mean to say “pedophile”? A “pedafile” would, presumably, be a filing cabinet filled with shoes.

      But to answer your implicit question, I’ve never been particularly interested in children, sexually or otherwise.

      In fact, as I grow older, I find that I have less and less patience for people significantly younger than I am. Youth lacks experience, and the sophistication that grows with it; many things that seem obvious to my eyes seem entirely opaque to the eyes of those with many fewer years than I have.

      No, I generally prefer the company of those with some experience behind them. The chasm between a thirty-year-old and a twenty-year-old is vast, and I scarcely have the patience to cross it.

      “i bet you arent even married… your whole online persona is a sham… a sick fantasy.”

      I rather think my wife would be quite surprised to hear that. πŸ™‚

      Bu the whole of the human condition is wide–much wider than you, I think, can ever know. It surprises me not at all that someone might look upon my life (or at least those portions of it reflected here, for it’s a mistake to believe that any journal can ever describe the whole of who someone is), and believe that it’s a fantasy. For many people, it would be; because, for many people, anything which falls outside the comfortable realm of the norm is altogether far too frightening and forbidding ever to be dragged into reality.

      Still, I find it interesting that you are creeped out by phone sex. I fear you lack imagination. Talking on the telephone is far less “creepy,” I think, than some of the other things I have documented here.

      How old are you? πŸ™‚

      • Re: ewwww

        Aw, you’re just too nice — and mature — Tacit. πŸ™‚ I seriously doubt that anyone who would post as this Ewwww person has can be reached or improved by logic, sense, or facts. They display a kneejerk, media-driven perspective that is far too common out there. They’re the kind of people who, for example, will commit murder to prove that life is sanctified.

        Ah, well, on to more interesting topics. Like open, loving, and creative minds, and what they can do in person and over telephones!. πŸ™‚

        • Re: ewwww

          Speaking of interesting topics — I was sorry you didn’t choose to post (or maybe didn’t notice), the post “Come out, come out, wherever you are” of a few days ago in the LJ Polyamory board. I’d be interested in your take on “more committed”-ness. πŸ™‚

      • [Anonymous post accusing me of pedophilia deleted]

        I have had quite enough.

        You know, at first I was amused by you. I find it quite interesting that my life is so foreign and alien to you that you would seem to find it easier to believe that I fabricate everything, including my marriage, than that the small portion of my life documented in this journal could possibly be true.

        This betrays, I feel, a profound lack of insight and a fundamental failure of apprehension on your part. I showed your post to my wife, who found it quite as amusing as I did.

        But your batting a straight .000 here, and now you’re beginning to become more wearisome than amusing.

        We all do tend to re-invent the world in our own image, and I think your apparent obsession with “dirty old men” speaks volumes about you while saying nothing about me. Still, no matter; if one were to wish to avoid teenagers altogether, one could hardly go anywhere on LiveJournal. Have you ever looked at the statistics page? The average age of a LiveJournal user is fourteen.

        Sould we then, do you suppose, conduct ourselves as though this entire forum is intended for children? I think not.

        They say with age comes wisdom. I wonder, if that is true, if you are even as old as you claim to be.

        And, to be quite honest, your assumed role as concerned citizen might come across with more authenticity if you actually posted with your name. Your anonymity, like your projections, again speak more about you than you might at first realize.

        I have debated disallowing anonymous posts in this journal. After turning this idea over a few times, I’ve decided not to do it, as there may yet be legitimate reasons why someone might want to post anonymously. However, I think I shall turn on the option to log IP addresses of those who post.

        And that, I think, is the end of that.

  2. ewwww

    you creep me out. how old are you? i bet you get off on the 14 year olds talking about masturbation or the 12 year olds having sex with their preteen lovers over on sextips. can we say pedafile? i bet you arent even married… your whole online persona is a sham… a sick fantasy. yuck.

  3. Re: ewwww

    Heya there, Ewwwww, ever hear of minding your own business and being polite in someone else’s livingroom? Especially one where you weren’t actually invited. Pissing on the carpet is rude. How old are you and why should you care what’s going on in someone else’s life? Don’t answer, no one is interested in you or your opinion. Go potty someplace else.

    Anon. . . so you don’t come piss in my living room either, you sound a bit not right in the head.

  4. Re: ewwww

    “you creep me out.”

    Somehow, that bothers me not even a little. πŸ™‚

    “how old are you?”

    35; I’ll be 36 in March.

    “can we say pedafile?”

    Did you mean to say “pedophile”? A “pedafile” would, presumably, be a filing cabinet filled with shoes.

    But to answer your implicit question, I’ve never been particularly interested in children, sexually or otherwise.

    In fact, as I grow older, I find that I have less and less patience for people significantly younger than I am. Youth lacks experience, and the sophistication that grows with it; many things that seem obvious to my eyes seem entirely opaque to the eyes of those with many fewer years than I have.

    No, I generally prefer the company of those with some experience behind them. The chasm between a thirty-year-old and a twenty-year-old is vast, and I scarcely have the patience to cross it.

    “i bet you arent even married… your whole online persona is a sham… a sick fantasy.”

    I rather think my wife would be quite surprised to hear that. πŸ™‚

    Bu the whole of the human condition is wide–much wider than you, I think, can ever know. It surprises me not at all that someone might look upon my life (or at least those portions of it reflected here, for it’s a mistake to believe that any journal can ever describe the whole of who someone is), and believe that it’s a fantasy. For many people, it would be; because, for many people, anything which falls outside the comfortable realm of the norm is altogether far too frightening and forbidding ever to be dragged into reality.

    Still, I find it interesting that you are creeped out by phone sex. I fear you lack imagination. Talking on the telephone is far less “creepy,” I think, than some of the other things I have documented here.

    How old are you? πŸ™‚

  5. Re: ewwww

    Aw, you’re just too nice — and mature — Tacit. πŸ™‚ I seriously doubt that anyone who would post as this Ewwww person has can be reached or improved by logic, sense, or facts. They display a kneejerk, media-driven perspective that is far too common out there. They’re the kind of people who, for example, will commit murder to prove that life is sanctified.

    Ah, well, on to more interesting topics. Like open, loving, and creative minds, and what they can do in person and over telephones!. πŸ™‚

  6. Re: ewwww

    Speaking of interesting topics — I was sorry you didn’t choose to post (or maybe didn’t notice), the post “Come out, come out, wherever you are” of a few days ago in the LJ Polyamory board. I’d be interested in your take on “more committed”-ness. πŸ™‚

  7. [Anonymous post accusing me of pedophilia deleted]

    I have had quite enough.

    You know, at first I was amused by you. I find it quite interesting that my life is so foreign and alien to you that you would seem to find it easier to believe that I fabricate everything, including my marriage, than that the small portion of my life documented in this journal could possibly be true.

    This betrays, I feel, a profound lack of insight and a fundamental failure of apprehension on your part. I showed your post to my wife, who found it quite as amusing as I did.

    But your batting a straight .000 here, and now you’re beginning to become more wearisome than amusing.

    We all do tend to re-invent the world in our own image, and I think your apparent obsession with “dirty old men” speaks volumes about you while saying nothing about me. Still, no matter; if one were to wish to avoid teenagers altogether, one could hardly go anywhere on LiveJournal. Have you ever looked at the statistics page? The average age of a LiveJournal user is fourteen.

    Sould we then, do you suppose, conduct ourselves as though this entire forum is intended for children? I think not.

    They say with age comes wisdom. I wonder, if that is true, if you are even as old as you claim to be.

    And, to be quite honest, your assumed role as concerned citizen might come across with more authenticity if you actually posted with your name. Your anonymity, like your projections, again speak more about you than you might at first realize.

    I have debated disallowing anonymous posts in this journal. After turning this idea over a few times, I’ve decided not to do it, as there may yet be legitimate reasons why someone might want to post anonymously. However, I think I shall turn on the option to log IP addresses of those who post.

    And that, I think, is the end of that.

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